I’m so terribly bored. I am in such need of an adventure i could cry.

i feel like how i feel on sunday mornings when i wake up in chatt town. slightly hung over or drunk, embarassed about something i dont remember happening, regretful about any and all actions that more than likely took place over the night before, shameful about the judgement that i feel like will be put on me, and wanting to throw up because of the mix of strong overbearing emotions due to my decisions. but i havent drank in almost a week. whats wrong with me? am i playing with a decision that makes me feel this way completely sober? what is wrong with me???

I know my post are random but one of my best friends Brooke once told me that someone told her that there’s a reason why we tell people things, even the pointless stories, whether we realize it or not. So when i’m the only one awake in my dorm, looking for a distraction from my paper, and need to get thoughts out of my head this is what happens.

I heard a live version of John Mayer’s Love Song For No One and he said how the song was for that some one special who is out there who he just hasn’t met yet. He said “and don’t worry they’re out there. They may be rolling around in the hay with someone else but its ok, they’re just figuring out what to compare you to when y’all do meet.” Haha I don’t know why but that is comforting in some way. by the way, John Mayer I don’t know if you realize this but that “someone special” is me. Come find me. We would have great times together and make beautiful babies. just sayin.